This tiny, little space I have carved out for myself amongst the masses was started simply as a way to share my honest thoughts. You know, the ones that are hard to speak out loud. The ones that you fear will make you look desperate or just plain crazy. The thoughts that may cause some to judge you as a bad wife, a bad mom, a bad Christian.
Some of these thoughts just flutter through my head and are gone in a flash. Others hang around for a while or play hide and seek amongst the clutter of my mind.
I share these words here, as honestly as I can, just so that maybe one other woman out there might read them and think…”I thought I was the only one.”
I feel like my thoughts and struggles are meant to be shared on these pages. But no matter how dark the thought or how difficult the struggle, I know and cling to the promises of God. I have faith, my friends. I have hope.
Sure I may wallow in my own self pity. And it may seem like all I do is complain about things or criticize myself. But in a way, sharing all of these things here is good therapy. It’s admitting my shortfalls for “all” to see. It helps me to get it out of my head and onto the page. In a way, I am able to take a step back and see it all a little more clearly when I write it and then read it here.
Life was meant to be shared, I believe. The good and the bad. The ugly, the messy and the beautiful. I have just chosen to share a little bit of mine here, with you.